My grief is so unique to me but I take comfort in knowing it is a human experience and everyone will at some point have grief enter their life.
I am going to blog about my personal journey through the most difficult time of my life because I am hoping it will help me process. And maybe someone will read something I have written that will resonate with them. We are all in this together and yet I have found grief and grieving to be a very lonely journey. One we can only walk alone.
Yes, there are many books to read and I have read many of them. There is also grief counseling and I have done that too. And I can honestly say that it did help…. A little bit. I think I was looking for something to take all the pan away and make it all easier to get through. Shit! Nothing but nothing is going to do that. Maybe a Martini and a cigarette but how often are you going to do that unless you are suicidal. And truth be told I think I have been for moments here and there.
Losing my parents within 7 months of each-other was like having the rug pulled out from under me while standing in mid air. First my dad then my mom. Losing my dad was hands down without a doubt the worst thing I have ever gone through in my whole life. More on that in my next blog post.