That feeling you get when you so fully realize that you will never see them again. I know they are gone. I get it. But today it really hit me hard like. OMG!! I am never ever EVER going to see either one again. I can’t talk to them , I can’t hear their voices, I can’t see them or hug them….Oh god. What a horrible feeling it is. It’s such a deep guttural feeling of sadness . I need them both so much right now.
The truth is I do believe it is very possible I will see them again when my time comes. I can only hope and pray that this happens. But for now, today , I am filled with anxiety and sorrow. I am grateful this feeling doesn’t come to often because it’s almost paralyzing .