Parents are gone. No kids, no husband, no family. Well, a brother that doesn’t keep in touch. I am in a place of “what now?” I am sad and feeling sorry for myself today. After today I have decided to not write about grief anymore. I am going to move on. I need to transfer […]
She has been my savior.
Lost my memory. Not even kidding. I forgot just everything. From people’s names to where I left things to what I said three minutes….no three seconds previously in a conversation. I found myself constantly saying “What was I saying? Where are those keys? What was your name? I had what I call “grief induced amnesia” […]
I have been thinking about this. I have been with three family members when they died. My maternal grandmother, my dad and my mom. Just inches away from them. I have heard people say how beautiful if is when your loved one passes and that if you are near them that you can feel their […]
So yesterday my anxiety was on overdrive. All day! Sure I could have taken a Xanax or a Valium just to help ease the anxiety but I chose instead to drink. Okay, when I mean drink I had TWO bloody Mary’s. That’s right . Just two. I am not a big drinker and typically I […]
That feeling you get when you so fully realize that you will never see them again. I know they are gone. I get it. But today it really hit me hard like. OMG!! I am never ever EVER going to see either one again. I can’t talk to them , I can’t hear their voices, […]